so in this life , most natural causes of death do not include pissing off the wrong person and in any account this life would be so much better without these people . in the most unthinkable manner that really feels like all of the dreams which persist upon a matter of fact basis are truly just relentless moments of clarity when you're dealing with a very difficult person . for the most part , you would hope that they would just cease to exist , or rather wish that they never existed . but who really has the time to worry about some discounted b-rated horror flick , seriously . it seems like all of those people really don't know what's coming to them until its too late , a rather stupid version of this cheap analogy is like dealing with the retardation of a drunk aborted fetus called upon just to make a point , and not as a situated decision that these people actually resulted from anything but their own demise ..
I can barely remember those days when it all felt out of place, incongruent, maladjusted, or just plain strange. it seemed like everybody was on the same page but rather absent. now it feels like its all part of some big scheme to try to make up for lost times. who knows if anybody is still out there living that same disaster. i like to think i've moved on but i keep losing ground everytime i hear somebody speak to me. a reminder. and just how long can you keep this going. a brush with death can do one shameless. but its not that shortness of breath that really grips me but rather those last moments before its gone. -maybe, idk
